One of My Greatest Spiritual Battles

You live for what you love most. You will make time to catch the latest episode on your favorite TV show. You will clear up your schedule to do lunch with that special person in your life. You will scrape and save for that ultimate vacation.

It’s true, we all live for what we love most. I still remember the first time I realized the power of desire while sitting in Greek class in seminary. Yes, that’s right, Greek class. And lest you tune me out, I’ll have you know I was about as excited as you may be at the prospect. I did not do particularly well in Greek during my college days, and I had heard stories about how hard this class would be. But on that first day of class, my professor made the insightful comment that the main difference between the succesful student and the failing student is desire. If someone wants something bad enough, they will most likely get it. You would think I would have figured that out by seminary, but for some reason the lesson really sunk in that day.

Perhaps you are familiar with this part of the Westminster Shorter Catechism:

Q. 1. What is the chief end of man?
A. Man’s chief end is to glorify God, and to enjoy him forever.

Notice the answer to our purpose and meaning in life has to do with our desire. We actually glorify God most by enjoying Him. You live for what you love most. That’s what Jesus said, too, when He was asked.

34 But when the Pharisees heard that he [Jesus] had silenced the Sadducees, they gathered together. 35 And one of them, a lawyer, asked him a question to test him. 36 “Teacher, which is the great commandment in the Law?” 37 And he said to him, “You shall love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your mind. 
38 This is the great and first commandment.
Matthew 22:34-38

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I am by nature an ambitious person. I like to get things done and to accomplish goals. But in all my pursuits I am constantly reminded of the depth of my own sinfulness when I quietly examine my inward desires and ask, “Why am I doing this? Is it really out of a love for God, or is it just out of a love for Cameron Pollock? Am I truly seeking God’s glory, or am I seeking my own glory?” You live for what you love most. And when I look at what I am living for, I have to confess that a lot of times it is really more for me than for Christ. And that’s because I love myself too much, and Christ far too little. It is one of my greatest, most fundamental, most important daily spiritual battles.

Thank goodness for the saving blood of Jesus Christ. At His feet I find full cleansing and forgiveness. At His feet I find true satisfaction and delight. And at His feet I learn and embrace the pure motivation to love Him more and more, not in word only, but in deed and in truth.

You live for what you love most. What are you living for?


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